Lonely, Never Alone

// I find myself rather lonely at times. And although lonely, never alone.

I’m consistently reminded that God not only is with me, but goes before me.

I’m a year into relocating. Yet sometimes I find myself still feeling ‘new.’

As I continue to meet new people, try new foods, discover new locations.

Sometimes it feels overwhelming.

This brings me to my writing prompt.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I find it hard that my support system no longer comprises of my family or long term friends.

And yet, I find it refreshing.

It’s refreshing to know what there is a new community rallying around my little family.

From catching rides to sports practice and games, to sleepovers, the “Minnesota nice” has shown itself.

It is hard to describe how grateful I am for complete strangers to have our well-being in mind.

From BBQ invites, to holiday parties, the unexpected support has been such a blessing.

It’s just another example, manifestation, of God’s goodness and faithfulness.

So although I feel lonely, I am never truly alone.
My long-term support is a call, text, or even an email away.

My new physical support is a “hey I need help.” And God sends them running.//

This post is part of Five Minute Friday (FMF) http://fiveminutefriday.com/2017/09/14/five-minute-friday-link-support/!

It is a free write, which means: no editing, no over-thinking, no worrying about perfect grammar or punctuation. Just write.

FMF Prompt: Support

This time last year…

As August 1st draws near, I reflect on this past year. This time last year I cried.

I was praying about my upcoming re-location, with a combination of excitement and anxiety. This has been a season of transition in all areas.

I reflected and prayed for God to protect my family, for Him to keep them, and keep me. I was scared of the missed baseball games, missing my daughter’s birthday celebration, and missing other moments I deemed precious as I embarked on my journey…alone.

The following weeks and months were some of the hardest days I have been through, as I adjusted to my new surroundings; adjusting to new people, new environment, new culture, lots of NEW.

August of last year, my family was over 1,000 miles away. This took my relationship with my husband to a new level. Today, he remains my biggest cheerleader. He provides so much encouragement and love every day. We have stood on a solid foundation that has been in the work for 13 years of friendship and almost 10 years of marriage.

I was challenged to re-shape my role as a mother, providing guidance and comfort via letters, cards, and weekly face time.

My kids re-located from TN to MN January of this year, so these past 6 months have been interesting to say the least, as I’ve taken on the role of a ‘single mom’ physically. With my husband in the military, he remains miles and a phone call away.

We have grown so much in this season.

I am in awe at God’s grace and mercy toward me. I am truly a blessed woman and kept.

I have so much of my story to share, but I felt compelled to share this snippet. My attitude of gratitude is over-flowing today so I had to share what has been on my heart for a while now.

Love Letter to Self

I was packing over the weekend for my re-location coming up and I found a piece of paper tucked away in an old wallet. Little did I know that words written Fall 2011 would bear fruit in Summer 2016. What truths are you sowing today to reap later?

Dear Self,

I am writing you this letter in hopes that it finds you when you need motivation on your rainy days. You will have them, everyone does. Who gets only sunshine? May you find JOY and life in the midst.

God works wonders in us while we are in the desert. I pray that these words penetrate your heart and you are receptive to the power these words hold. You are good. You are smart. You are important. You are BEAUTIFUL. You are worthy. You deserve to be on your to-do list! You are robust, faithful, resilient, hardy and blessed.

Be patient, disciplined, and obedient.

Depend on God. His word will not return to Him void.

Spiritual – you are forgiven. There is no need to look backward. Tod has called you to move FORWARD. There is so much light in your future. God is a CREATOR, not a duplicator. Continue to Press, Push, Pray, and Praise. Read diligently. Pray until something happens. Praise Him in advance. Walk in Faith. It is already done.

Mental – You are robust. You have a sound mind. You are responsible for your health, including your mental health. Do whatever you need to do to be who God has called you to be. He is a healer. Continue to be POSITIVE. Your thoughts have wheels. The devil is a manipulator. The devil is a LIAR. Pray, Read, and Fast when you are attacked. Know that when he strikes, it means you are doing something right. Do not be timid or afraid. Be the woman that when your feet hit the floor, the devil is in turmoil that you are up.

Physical– Your smile is your most beautiful attribute. Your brown eyes hold wisdom and truth. Your body is durable, reliable, and dependable. Be thankful for what your body has endured and given you. The only obstacle blocking you is YOU. No excuses. Make it from the Promise to the Promised Land one day, one moment, one small victory at a time. The bigger the giant, the harder they fall.

Invite God into the margins of your life.

Your thought life.

Your hurts.

Your failures.

Your feelings.

God’s love and grace never fail. He can take our worst and add His best. We just have to make the choice to stay with Him and keep following Him through it all. Remember that you are highly favored and blessed. God is a way-maker and a burden-barrier.

God Loves you. I love you.

Lemon Love

#LiveFreeThursday

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When Emotions Dim Your Light

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference. ~ Serenity Prayer

 

I’m afraid.

I’m sad.

I’m tired.

But I am not alone.

In light of recent events, FL gator incident, mass shootings, election polls (to name a few), I initially found myself showing empathy and “letting my light shine.”

As days pass, the dust settles, I realize that instead of staying connected to others, I have become consumed by their opinion.

I find myself judgmental and resentful.

As tears trickle, I realize that I have allowed other peoples’ views to bother me.

The negativity impacts my thoughts, my dialogue, and makes me anxious.

I have allowed fear to impact me.

Qui-ve-ry. Afraid. Unsure. Trembling. ~ Suzie

My soul is quivery.

I press pause on the world and press play on God.

One step toward overcoming this ‘quivery’ time in my life is to press pause on social media (so I’m not flooded with the world).

Another step I’ve taken is to carve out time in my day to truly seek God through prayer and not only read his word, but seek to apply it.

Although, I’ve been reading my devotionals, I have not carved out space and time to pray like I need to. #WarRoom

If you are feeling quivery (afraid, unsure, trembling), identify the trigger and adjust as needed.

Reflect on a baby step you can take to get positive thoughts back on track.

It’s ok to be afraid. It’s ok to be sad. It’s ok to not have all the answers…but it’s not ok to park your thoughts there.

Press reset button.

Press pause.

#WorryAboutNothing #PrayAboutEverything

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Meditation Deposits:

Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you. 2 Thessalonians 3:16 NIV

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7 NIV

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13 NIV

Devotional Deposits:

Proverbs 31 Ministries http://proverbs31.org/

Jesus Calling, Enjoying Peace in His Presence ~ Sarah Young