“No power in the sky above or in the earth below- indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:39
God loves you…God saved you.
That is the message the Apostle Paul conveyed to an audience of non-believers, seeking to transform their hearts, as Jesus had transformed his.
You do not know me. You do not know what I have seen or what I have done… I am broken.
That was my response to Paul.
I am too broken to save.
Even today, with confidence to say ‘I’m a Jesus girl’, trying to comprehend God’s love is a struggle.
My testimony is one of grief, childhood secrets, and looking-for- love decisions.
As an overcomer of family addiction, sexual abuse, and self-inflicted wounds, I knew the addition of sorrow and the division of family. I learned some childhoods were not sugar, spice, and everything nice.
I sought the world to fill the void of a little girl who felt unloved, unwanted, and ashamed.
There were so many times in my life that God felt far away.
The beauty is that even when I was distant from God in my heart and with my actions, God’s love was with me.
When a family member forgave what I thought was the end-all bad decision, God’s love was with me. When I was depressed and was encouraged to keep standing when I wanted to crawl in a hole…God’s love was with me.
It’s persistence, pressing, and continuous searching that now strengthen my relationship with God. In recent years when life has not gone as planned and I felt ‘why me’, I had to make the decision to follow Jesus, even when prayers were wrapped with tears.
I reflect on Paul’s message in Romans 8:38 NLT “…nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow- not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.”
Nothing includes wrong done to us and wrong we have done.
When life feels cloudy with a chance of rain and small percentage of sunshine, press into God’s presence through prayer, reading his word, or request a prayer warrior to intercede on your behalf.
God’s love shows through acts of kindness, gentleness, and my favorite- friendship.
May God’s love wrap you while in the valley and on the mountaintop.
Jesus loves you.
Jesus loves me.